Lazy Nerd Diaries: New Location
Home sweet, Home...Lazy Nerd Diaries
The Lazy Nerd Diaries, are ramblings of mine that eventually end up making sense at the end of each entry. I started the Lazy Nerd Diaries on my author website and blog, as a way to write my way through writer's block. I named them Lazy Nerd Diaries to collaborate with my brand name Naturally Nerdy Chic. However, it didn't have a home yet, so it was just a side note on my other blog. Now that I have officially established Naturally Nerdy Chic however I can move Lazy Nerd Diaries to it's new home!
Writer's depression and Intimidation
I'm currently working on two books right now, one of them I actually hoped to release the end of this month. Unfortunately I am STRUGGLING. I recently paid for someone to critique my work and give me some advice on plot development. They were friendly enough with their critique but it still stung hearing the holes I knew existed within my story. I told myself I wouldn't feel down about it, and that I'd power through my writing. However, as Friday quickly approached, I realized I hadn't wrote one single thing this week. For anything. No story writing... No blog writing...Not even a free write. Finally as I dragged my way through my Saturday I acknowledged that I was feeling a little depressed and intimidated. I was depressed because I knew what I had to do, but I couldn't bring myself to get into gear to do it. I was intimidated by the critique, and I questioned whether or not I had the guts to do what I needed to do. Could I actually pull off these books? Was I reaching too high? So many people have already walked in my shoes, did I really have what it took? I felt so small, after all I have absolutely NO experience (outside of a bunch of college english classes) being a writer.
What changed? Nothing really. I still feel intimidated. I'm not depressed anymore though. Deciding to take action, no matter how small helped with that. I acknowledge I'm a novice, and that I'm not as good as an expert. However, life has taught me that steps, no matter how small eventually add up. In time, with practice, I will surpass my starting point. Writing this diary post, helped me work through feeling depression about writing. I may not know what to write sometimes, but just sitting down and letting the words go, will create the topic for me. As for dealing with feelings of intimidation, I just have to mentally stomp on those. Everyone is a beginner at some point. The people that are out there doing it big right now, had to start somewhere. They felt how I felt, and they kept going anyways. Keeping that reminder in mind keeps me moving forward.